On September 20, 2019, I went to the Court to inquire about the procedure for obtaining photocopies of my 2014 case file. I was directed to an office located just outside the Court to the left. There, I was told I should either hire a lawyer to write a formal plea on my behalf or try writing it myself.

​I almost gave up, but I decided that rather than paying €100 to a greedy lawyer for such a simple task, I would take the suggestion and try it myself. I went to a stationery shop, bought a notebook and a pen for about €1, and drafted the letter.

​​I returned to the office outside the Court with the letter shown below. However, I was then told to take it to a certain Dr. Maria Dolores (Doris) Fenech, whose office was located on the second or third floor of the Court, to the right of the lift, to see if the letter was acceptable. I proceeded to Dr. Fenech’s office; after making a few phone calls, she confirmed everything was in order. She directed me to return once more to the office outside the Court to officially register my plea, which I did.

English Translation of the Plea:
To the Honorable Court,
​In 2014, I was the subject of a criminal case presided over by Magistrate Carol Peralta (Ref. No: 291/2014; Date of Sentence: 26/06/2014).
​During the proceedings, several reports were filed, including one by psychiatrist Dr. George Debono and a joint report by three psychiatrists: Dr. David Cassar, Dr. Peter Muscat, and Dr. Ethel Felice.
​I respectfully request the Court’s permission to obtain copies of the aforementioned reports.
​Respectfully,
​Nicholas Grech

While I was at the office to submit this plea, I was given the phone number for the chambers of Magistrate Dr. Rachel Montebello, who had taken over the caseload following Magistrate Peralta's retirement. I was instructed to wait a few days and then call the office to check whether my request had been granted.

The following was the Court's reply to my plea:

English Translation of the Court Decree:
Court of Magistrates (Malta)
As a Court of Criminal Judicature
​The Police vs. Nicholas Grech
Case decided on: 26th June 2014 by Magistrate Dr. Carol Peralta
Date: 24th September 2019
​The Court,
Having seen the application filed by Nicholas Grech on the 20th of September 2019;
The request is hereby granted.
Dr. Rachel Montebello
Magistrate

After being informed by phone that my plea had been accepted, I went to the Court Archives in early October 2019 to collect the decree and make the necessary photocopies. To my surprise, an official named Gejtu returned empty-handed, stating he could find nothing. He suggested I contact Dr. Maria Dolores (Doris) Fenech, who was responsible for the Archives, so she could investigate the matter herself.

She told me to wait a few days while she checked if the file had been misplaced, promising to call me back. Of course, she never did. I was the one who had to call her for updates and even visit her office again to lodge a formal complaint.

Eventually, I began to suspect the obvious: my case file had been intentionally "lost." I believe this was done because the psychiatrists' reports reached a false conclusion — a fact I had brought to Psychiatrist David Cassar attention long ago. Despite this, he kept me wrongfully confined in a mental institution, subjected to forced medication and injections. One should not expect better from a tyrant like Cassar; rather than allowing me to possess evidence that could incriminate him, he chose to eliminate that evidence and leave me wrongfully locked away.

This situation is better understood in the context of Magistrate Carol Peralta. In December 2013 (roughly 6 months before he had sentenced me to Mount Carmel Hospital), lhe abusively held a Christmas party, smuggling alcohol into the court building past security and metal detectors. With the connections he has, he and his associates could just as easily smuggle out a bundle of papers. No one searches officials on their way out.

I suddenly realized how naive I had been not to suspect such a move from a psychiatrist like Cassar or from our flawed legal system, which seems designed to cover up the abuses of the privileged and those with "friends of friends." This mirrored the way the Commission for the Administration of Justice handled Magistrate Peralta years ago (notably, he "retired" in August 2015, to avoid dismissal over the 2013 Christmas party scandal and to secure his pension).

For a moment, I took solace in the fact that the psychiatrists' erroneous conclusions had been quoted by the media when I was sentenced in 2014. However, I soon questioned the reliability of our local media. They are biased and have spread intentional lies about me for years — such as labeling me a "cat killer" long before any sentence was passed, despite the fact that I have never killed an animal. I found myself in a dilemma: if I claim the media lied about me, how can I use those same "liars" as credible sources for evidence? As the ancient Romans said, "Falsus in uno, falsus in omnibus" (false in one thing, false in everything). I fully expect our legal system to exploit this dilemma to continue covering up for those involved.

When you find yourself in such a situation, your animal instincts take over. Finding yourself derided and treated like a beast, you reason that you might as well act with that same savagery, taking the law into your own hands to settle the score for the injustices you have long suffered. As the saying goes, it comes down to a simple choice: “get busy living or get busy dying.” Having survived so many ordeals, I chose the former; I refused to succumb. I opted to keep fighting, alone, to find a way to obtain a copy of the psychiatrists' court reports and their flawed conclusions.

Time was running out, but I eventually managed to secure them. The experience I gained before my 2014 arrest — running around in the middle of the night taking measurements and photos in the church crypt for the love of my hometown — recharged my adrenaline to risk everything once more in this fight against injustice. Because time was so short, I couldn't manage to take the necessary photos (the "photocopies" I needed). Consequently, I had to keep the original documents. Without intending to, I ended up with evidence covered in original fingerprints rather than mere copies. Just when I thought all was lost, I found an oar to grasp to keep myself afloat. With that oar, I hope to one day reach the shore alive and fully recount this ordeal.

The following emails were sent by me, and with the assistance of others, to Dr. Maria Dolores (Doris) Fenech. These serve as digital proof that I informed her of the potential intricacies behind the intentional disappearance of my 2014 court case. She never replied. Her silence and complete inaction, despite her role as the head of the court archives/registry, confirms her direct involvement in the matter. To further substantiate these claims, I am also uploading the following recordings.

Call: 6th April 2020
In this recording, I requested to speak with Doris Fenech. The man on the line informed me that she was working from home due to COVID-19. He took my phone number and promised to forward it to her so she could return my call. Once again, she failed to do so.

Call: 23rd April 2020
More than two weeks later, I called again. The woman who answered stated that Dr. Fenech was not in that day (Thursday) and suggested I call back the following day, as she was expected to be in the office.

Call: 24th April 2020
When I called the next day, I spoke to a man (likely the same individual from the first recording). This time, he did not immediately say she was out. Instead, he seemingly checked with her to see if she would take the call. He eventually returned to the line and claimed she had not come into the office — contradicting what I was told the previous day — and asserted she was teleworking. If she were truly teleworking, he should have known this from the start.

Despite being told that she had ignored my previous attempts to reach her, the man suggested I send another email. He refused to provide a direct number where she could be reached at home, even after I explained the severity of the situation: “My case has vanished from the court archives and she has failed to take action.” To ensure I followed every available channel, I followed his suggestion. With the help of others, I forwarded my original email (dated 2-Dec-2019) to her once more. As expected, she did not reply. This silence and continued inaction further confirm her involvement.

Note: This email correspondence can be found in the link provided above. I also sent a follow-up email on 12-Feb-2021, which she also ignored.

It is deeply troubling to see a lawyer in such a significant position within the Court Registry display such blatant negligence, effectively incriminating herself through her silence. However, it is even more concerning when this pattern of behavior extends to the Police Force. They, too, have failed to take any action regarding this matter (see the attached emails for reference).